precursor of success.

atleast for me, failure seems to be a very fundamental element of life :
success' prerogative.
nothing comes to me without failure hitting the nail at first. and it gets buried in quite deep too - as though its a law of nature, fabricated in particular for me - whether or not i succeed to even the barest minimum. feels like i need to/must have failed before if i ever succeeded in something.

however, ad-lib (especially mine), it serves as a stepping stone. most of the time, as i would like it to be. this would seem to be the right choice as apposed to being worn down by such instances, losing all hope, confidence and belief in the self. such an act is carried out in the hope that it would somehow propel the positive forces within to cart on, sustaining ourselves in a probably fictitious belief that all can still be well, if it ends well....oh, and thats only after we've somehow brought ourselves about and postulated that it has'nt ended already...or....once we reach the end (once again, we dont know what happens when we reach the end too(when we die))....bummer.

if i were to speak only within the limits of what has already been established, then i dont have much to say. i.e. they say success comes only with hard-work. no, not those people, the other ones. they do. i guess they advice such from experience.
in that case, i cant complain to not succeeding in anything. i have simply not put in any effort or hard-work whatsoever. im not one of those people who try very hard and then pour their hearts out due to failure. im one of those people who dont even try but sit, think and write about failure and success.

im the type who thinks you've achieved certain success only when you make an omlette without an egg ever being laid...when you win a marathon without even running...when you do something without really having to do it...or when you understand all of life without even living it. i just want it, but dont want to do anything for or about it.

ive never really tried hard, hence my consistent relationship with failure. dont mistake me for being proud of it, i just dont understand why. why is this success thing achieved only when you work for it? failure doesnt have this problem! it comes anyway, you really dont have to work for it at all! trust me, it always there...free.
buy 1, get a million free. and it so happens, the first one is free too!

this is some twisted shit! success doesnt come without failure, but failure comes without success. i say this is cheating. well, you can say that failure comes successfully. whoa. never thought about that!! so there is some success after all! the success of failure!

people who have realised this, and are also like me, come with very motivational views on the meaning of the word...and quotes are to be found plenty.
some of them are :
"Success is the not the destination, its the Journey." -Ben Sweetland
"Failure is the condiment that gives success its flavor." -Truman Capote
"In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time." -Anthony D'Angelo
"Success does not come to you, you go to it." -Marva Collins
"Success comes before work only in the dictionary."
"Success is a state of mind. If you want success, start thinking of yourself as a success." -Dr. Joyce Brothers
these quotes are very old...if there are such things as re-birth and past-lives, then these words must have been mine after having failed many times and trying to find excuses for myself.

but these i must have said when i realised the truth about all this...also probably my own words in my other past lives, where i was smarter than the previous me's :

"If at first you don't succeed, failure may be your style." -Quentin Crisp
"Success is simply a matter of luck. Ask any failure." -Earl Nightingale
"Success is not permanent. This is not yet been proved for failure."
"Success always occurs in private and failure in full public view."
"The great dividing line between success and failure can be expressed in five words: "I did not have time." -Franklin Field
"Success is what you define it to be."

no matter what, i have been a success uptil now...or atleast according to Bob Dylan who said, "A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and gets to bed at night, and in between he does what he wants to do."
well, almost...because that 'in between' part was not fully justified.
almost.

hopefully, ill learn to learn from my mistakes one day...and hopefully soon. would like that...some change from the usual.

well, whatever it is, i just hope that i live the day i would be able to say "I found it easier to get rich than I did to make excuses."