greater than or equal to.

much of my time has been spent in the 'less than' quadrant. actually, all of it.
it would be a battle for me to get to the 'equal to' to phase, the 'greater than' seeming surreal.

it does seem progressive. first you are (or i am, and maybe only i!) 'not equal to', then, with a drill you become 'less than' after which, if endowed with the right qualities,skills and efforts you somehow reach the 'equals' measure. anything beyond that is directly proportional to you and your everything.

'better' is a relative term. is one person be better than an other? is it quantitative or qualitative? or both?

if it is quantitative, then im completely doomed. if it qualitative, then im only 'maybe doomed'. in the case of the latter, i could get extremely lucky if there would be a few more people like me in this world who think the same way i do...that way, i just might get some merit for having many demerits! no wait..that would be quantitative. damn shit bullshit.

there will also be some-many-ones better than me. but you could say that i am, in some ways, better than many-some-ones. very few and in even fewer ways. but heck, atleast something!